I really don't wanna look pathetic although a lot of friends care about me. I know that I gotta be strong during this difficult time, for my parents at least. But everytime when I asked myself: "Being my parents' only child, what they gave me birth and raised me up for?", I became speechless with tears. I did plan to go back home by searching online for the flight info, airfare, visa appointment schedule, etc. It was just a couple of clicks away to book my airticket the other day. I almost did it. But I can't do so due to a couple of issues.
In the past few days, I cried a lot and could burst into tears at any minute. I don't wanna share my sadness in the bottom of my heart with anybody else since I just simply don't wanna spread it. It'll take some time to digest, cure and reside in my heart by itself, I believe.
I call my parents at least twice a day when it's around my dad's lunch time and when my mom goes back home from the hospital alone around 9pm. I really wanted to try my best to make them laugh, but most of the time it's the other way around. Their braveness and optimism cheer me up and make me so proud of them.
Thanks to God that my dad's situation is stabilized and getting better and better. I'll continue to pray for his full recovery. I know a few friends who love me are praying for him as well.
I appreciate xiao came down here to be with me for one week. He is the one who shows up to walk with me whenever I'm experiencing hard times. I'm so thankful that I have him.
4 comments:
Sadness in your heart will be gone, after darkness is dawn. Be yourself and be confident, you are the girl so strong.........
very touching and inspiring.
thx.
I tried to get contact with you through the MSN, but I guess you don't want to spread the sadness.
Life is hard, but at least you have so many friends around you and Xiao is the strongest support to you.
Take care.
Meihua
Thanks Meihua. You are right-- xiao is the best to me.
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